Yesterday was HARD. I didn't want to run. I didn't want to get out of that easy chair. I just wanted to sleep... to relax... to sit... to BE. But yesterday, I was a GREAT athlete. Yesterday I ran inspite of myself. And according to the coach, good athletes train when they want to. Great athletes train when they don't. It was all mental. And mental is what I really need to work on. Yesterday I took a step in the right direction.
And you know what? About 5 minutes into my run, I was GLAD I was there. It was an easy run, but I got to get into zone 2 for at least 50% of an hour. So I did. And it was great! I was listening to my body... feeling what zone 2 feels like in my lungs, in my legs, in my head. And even though it was an easy run. I ran close to 6 miles in an hour. 10:03 pace - not bad for an easy run.
And then.... I took another step. I ate good food yesterday. I fueled my body instead of that lonely little voice who wanted food to keep her company. I have chocolate chip cookies in the freezer. Homemade. They are awesome! I gave myself permission to have some for my afternoon snack and then I stopped eating them. In the evening (my worst time!) I sat in that stupid easy chair watching tv and thinking about those chocolate chip cookies. But that other step? That was me saying no to temptation and yes to ME! Yes to performance, yes to food as fuel and not friendship. One small step! (By the way, that step lasted for 2 hours! These people who can think about it for only ten minutes are either lying or don't like chocolate or MUCH tougher than I am!)