Tired

I'm tired today. Tired of the roller coaster I've set myself up on. The constant ups and downs between "the drug" and the defensive posture. I'm tired of shoveling. I'm tired just because.... I took a long walk in the snow this morning (5 degrees and windy!) Went for a swim, did some power yoga, shoveled some nasty drifted snow (into the wind!), went for another walk.... is it any wonder I can't lift my frigging arms?!?!

And you know what? I want someplace to wear my cool boots. Could have worn them yesterday if I'd known what the evening had in store, but no, I was once again unprepared and went out like a slob. I did, however, get some much needed ego boosting at the bar. Who doesn't like to hear someone call them beautiful? And have a nice intelligent conversation with an interesting man? Even if he's not "the one" it's still fun. Not everything has to be so intense or "going someplace". Sometimes, it's nice to just relax. Have a good time. Hmmmm... perhaps I should listen to myself, eh? hahahaha